It was a simple training day today at work. We were going over company policies, programs, protocol while also doing some indirect team-building.
I was asked to give a short "something" about self care and when I told my partner (boyfriend) of nearly two years this, he laughed out loud. Humpf. He was laughing at the irony of me teaching a class on Self Care. The nerve. However, he has a point. I am not great at it. Self care is a moving target and sometimes I can't seem to catch up with it. Maybe next week I will get to that stuff. Meanwhile, there are important things to take care of. Or are there?
Case in point, last week when I came down with a cold and instead of cancelling THIS, I went anyway and then pranced around SF for a couple days, turning in my first paper for the semester from my hotel room while coughing and taking both Albuterol and Alka Seltzer Plus cold to function properly.
Needless to say, right after our training day today, I hopped over to the clinic where my practitioner told me, "You have another sinus infection." I knew I needed an antibiotic because the medicine I had been taking wasn't doing anything anymore. I was still weak, shaky and cloudy-brained.
I asked him what I could do to stop showing up in his office with this same story. He works in a clinic and he sees all kinds so I figure by default he must be some kind of Allopathic ninja. Surely he has some secret he can tell me, something revolutionary that will change how I operate. He shrugs and says, "Some people are more prone to these things but eating right and exercising and taking good care of yourself can't hurt."
So self care. It is the image of the flight attendant telling you to put the oxygen mask on oneself before putting it on your kid. It is knowing you can't transmit something you haven't got. The irony of my teaching this self care section of the staff training today was to highlight my own weak spots and in so doing, letting me revisit how they can be strengthened.
Self care seems like it might be selfish but it is the selfish one who runs themselves ragged because they are of no use to others. Hopefully with this public announcement (humiliation) I will begin to change my ways. I will keep you posted.